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Classes start tomorrow and I'm excited to have something to do..I know thats pretty sad. I have been going to the same University for 4 years and haven't met anyone I would consider a friend. I'm always by myself and normally at home with nothing to do. I pretend like I'm not at home on the weekends sometimes and won't come out of my room until I hear my roommate leave and then I'll make up some story about how me and "a friend" went to this bar or that club and had so much fun... My life is quite pathetic when you think about it. My goal for this semester is to step outside my comfort zone and stop being so self conscious about my body and own my opinions. This is going to be extremely difficult but I'm 22 years old and it's time to grow the fuck up and stop acting like a shy little 12 year old girl.

On the food front, I have been really good today. So far I had a yogurt for breakfast (70) and a coffee for lunch (30). Thats 100 calories and I'm planning on having another yogurt for dinner so that makes a grand total of 170 for the day!... yesterday I couldn't sleep at all. I would sleep for 2 hours, wake up and be wide awake, then fall asleep again out of boredom and wake up a few hours later. I hate when the insomnia kicks in.

My weight this morning was 164.6 I lost 3.4 lbs in one day! (it was probably water weight but I'm still taking it!)

This Has Got To Be The Good Life

Today I went back to school. My dad came with me and helped me move into my apartment. The whole process lasted from 6am until 3pm. The one thing I love about moving is there is so much to do and you want to finish as soon as possible so you skip the breaks for little things like food. 

Breakfast: 2 diet pills and a yogurt- 70 cals

Lunch: diet pill-                              0 cals

Dinner: yogurt-                            70 cals 

Total                                         140 cals

the only bump in the smooth ride of today was this morning I weighed 168

Two Words.

I Binged.

If I Die Young, Bury Me In Satin

I'm 22 years old and have had an EDNOS for as long as I can remember. I was playing with my dog today and looked down to see the fat bulging over the top of my shorts. I felt extremely disgusting and wanted to vomit. I look disgusting and it's time for me to do something about. I plan on breaking my fast/ binge cycle this time and get to my ideal weight (if one exists) and stay there for good.


Hopefully, this blog will hold me accountable for what I eat ( plan on saying what I ate daily) and a place to vent when needed instead of binging.