Today was the first day of class, and surprisingly I enjoyed it. Normally it would go a little something like this: walk into class sit in the back, avoiding eye contact of course, play with my phone/ipod until class starts, say nothing during class, and then get up and leave having said nada to anyone. Today, however, I decided I was going to be who I wanted to be. I made eye contact with people, sat in the front of the class (that tends to be where the more social people sit in my experience), and even made a joke in class and got some laughs. I felt like a normal human being. I don't think I mentioned yet but I have social anxiety, so group settings (i.e. class) brings out extreme anxiety.
On the boy front, I gave out my number to a boy in my class, a group of very fit boys came over and talked to me, and 3 of them ended up walking me to class. I guess decided to be confident (or faking it til you make it) really shows to other people. Are groups of hot boys going to approach me everyday because I'm standing a little taller? I doubt it, but for some reason the planets were aligned today and I'm not complaining!
This morning I weighed in at 162.4.
B: Yogurt- 70
L: Fruit cup- 100 (?)
D: 1/2 Fruit cup- 50 (?)
Total: 220
*If I don't know the exact number of calories, I put the highest number that I think it could possibly be
Good job on being confident. I also have social anxiety so I can relate to you...It sucks. Stay strong love
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maybe social anxiety and EDs go hand in hand? I'm the same way :s
ReplyDeleteI'm nervous about going to university in sept. Maybe the trick is to pretend to be confident and hopefully fool others into thinking you are?
Anyways I found this post inspiring, thanks :)